This sequence of dialogue by text messages occurred between two people separated by necessity although temporarily by about 5000 miles. Anyway, make what you will of it.
A: There’s something I need to tell you
A: You know you were honest with me about being bi
B: Go on
A: I am very materialistic
A: For someone who didn’t grow up in a mega rich family
A: I am mega rich at mind
A: I have this concept in my head that I never want to be poor
A: If I am not successful at life I will marry rich… That’s how crazy I am
A: I’m sorry you have to hear this but I need you to know
A: I don’t know why I am like this
A: But I like nice things, going to nice places etc etc
A: And yet I cannot afford it
A: That’s the stupid part
A: I’m bad at making decisions
A: Which is something I’m trying to work on right now
A: That’s one of the reasons why I chose to go to London, instead of Buckinghamshire
A: I couldn’t let people keep making decisions for me
A: I had to take the risk of throwing myself out there and learn by myself
A: But yeah that’s me…
A: Feel free to say what you want
A: I’ll understand
A: Are you not talking to me?
B: I just got home and had to perform obsequiances
B: Anyway, Babe… I knew you were materialistic
B: And believe me I’ve dealt with a lot of people who like to live above their means
B: Its not uncommon
B: I think I’m very materialistic to an extent
B: I used to be worse before I went to uni
B: But I think my materialism stemmed from wanting to impress people
B: But in reality it didn’t help me impress anyone
B: People mostly got the impression that I was some rich spoiled snob.
B: Which I am not… And never want to be seen as.
B: We all have to find ways to control our urges
B: Maybe for instance by being very clear on what we want and what we need
B: (easier said than done)
B: It comes with practice
B: But eventually, you must realise that being poor does not mean you cannot be a respectable and good person
B: No one commits a crime by being born poor
B: At the same time being rich does not make you respectable or good
B: On the contrary… I think it tends to show our true colours
B: Truth is, most rich people tend to be just that
B: Rich, foolish, unappreciative, uninteresting and selfish
B: Not all of them, but few rich people have more to them than that.
B: We all wish for more money than we have when in reality it is our happiness and well-being that matters
B: And money never guarantees that.
B: Anyway, that’s my take on it.
B: Im glad you have admitted it, and if you want we can work on it together.
B: A… there are so many things in this day and age that distract us from what we need
B: And not surprisingly, what we need seldom coincides with what we want
B: It’s a tall order to see the difference, and I cant remember who said this but “we live only to discover beauty, all else is a form of waiting”
B: And I really think that’s true
B: Today I was at the airport with my cousin, and a small boy, about 7 or 8 years old came over to my cousin and asked him to buy some peanuts he was hawking, my cousin said no thanks, and the boy just stood there and said, okay then but offered my cousin some for free anyway.
B: It nearly melted my heart. Here is a boy living in abject poverty (relatively anyway) and he’s offering up his means of living out of sheer generosity.
B: I had to give him money, without taking his peanuts.
B: What is wealth?
B: is it when you have plenty zeros behind a number in your bank account?
B: Or is it having almost nothing and still giving what you have willingly?
B: … It’s a question worth asking.
B: Living in the UK its easy to forget the harsh realities people face elsewhere, and to think what we possess is insufficient
B: But in reality, with all its shams, drudgery, and broken dreams, the world is awash with beauty, even the lowliest people strive for high ideals, and all around us there is heroism.
B: It’s a beautiful world out there babe,
B: Strive to be happy
B: Not rich
A: I am happy… But I can be happier
A: Those are wise words hun
A: For me its not about respect cause I don’t need to earn that
A: That’s not what I crave
A: Pretty things are what I crave
A: Beautiful pretty things
A: But okay
A: Im glad you’re not disgusted with me lol
B: … lol
B: Im not disgusted (only rather disappointed)
B: But it’s a trait I tend to despise in people
B: And sometimes it can taint my image of them
B: But for you perhaps it wont matter
B: Anyway, if you feel getting richer will make you happier; well then! Better start working that ass
B: I know a few street corners that need tending
B: Haha… I joke.
B: But seriously, those corners don’t work themselves.